erin made me do it

my lovely friend erin from over at the ponderosa 'jolly journal' has tagged me to write a blog with 7 things you might not know abuot me. and i am powerless to disobey....

1. love, love, love halloween. in spite of all evidence that might imply that i would hate it (spiders, people wearing masks, scary stuff, commercialism), i love it. hated it as a kid, lvoe it as an adult. it's one of my favorite times of the year. it's also when i can get a lot of decorating done, since so many things at halloween are skull oriented. and i love the skulls. which is something that i make pretty clear

2. i am one shitty correspondent. seriously. i mean this for people i never see ever as much as i do people who are an arm's reach away. terrible. and it's not that i don't care about them, i do. the people who i (at the very least) 'keep tabs on' mean a whole lot to me. i am, however, really lazy and miss out on a lot of lovely connections that i could be making with people i already know that i love. this goes hand in hand with my generally sub-par commuication skills. i stutter. i have shitty handwriting and typing. i don't know how to address more than 2 people at a time if it's not on a stage. my body language is really internally focused. and i make the goofy faces. but i'm an avid reader and excellent listener.

3. i walk a really fine line between being a strictly logic-driven person and an intuitive being. because, while i try to do what makes sense, i just...that damn gut feeling pushes me in totally whacked out directions and because it's right so, so, So much of the time i feel like it's logical to follow it even if what i'm doing at the time makes zero sense.

4. i have no clue how to 'follow' a blog on this thing.

5. i believe in the existence of ghosts. real-deal ghosts. and while i'm totally chicken-shit about the thought of entering a 'haunted house' around halloween, i wouldn't think twice about being an amateur ghost hunter. also i read tarot cards. and own two ouija boards. i'm a kook.

6. i'm not very comfortable talking about myself unless i really have a story to tell. this is something that's been a big focus in therapy (which only makes sense, since your therapist is there to listen to you talk about you and hence help you fix you), and i've made a little progress, but man...it's, yeah. so it's weird too that i have this blog and that i periodically post blogs in other spots on the interwebs. my life really hasn't been story-filled lately. though, it has been fun.

7. you know, for being single for like an eon, i really don't get crazy lonely that often. it happens, and there are definitely times when i think 'yeah, i'd like to have someone that i have a different kind of relationship with) but...it's not terrible. this makes me more than a little afraid that i'm just getting used to the idea of being alone forever. but typing that sort of makes me want to cry, so...maybe that's not a real danger... i don't konw. i just, i like a lot of 'me' time.

and now, as per erin's tagging order, i am to tag 7 others to do a simillar exercise in their blogs. here's where i have a difficulty... i follow a couple of blogs, and a couple of people follow this one, but uh...i don't know who's game for this.... so. matt, mary, jenn, erin (wait, no, you already did this), ed, benji, la, randy(?), josh(?), bill(?), assorted others who i'm forgetting or who don't have blogs but read anyway: if you'd like to do this, do it. i'll gladly read what you wrote. just...let me know that you did it. i have no fucking clue how to follow people on this thing....